i dont know why!

hay....eto na naman ako....may iniisip na bagay at tao...ewan ko nga ba kung bakit pero...he's really into my system right now... hindi ko talaga sya mainitndihan...simula nung nakilala ko sya confusion ang dinala nya sakin...hay, hindi ko sya dapat iniisip pero kasalanan nya to eh...nakakainis talaga sya...bakit ba kasi ganun sya? i only want to know one thing from him pero ayoko nga itanong... masyadong malaki ung risk this time and i think its not worth risking... mas hindi ko kakayanin pag wala sya... pero alam ko namang dahil lang to sa desisyon ko eh... pero ganun talaga... basta, ewan... sana maging masaya ung ending... maybe this song will tell you how i feel right now... ahhhh...ayoko ng ganito! CONSTANTLY NINA I knew it was there Though I tried to hide it The feeling just kept on shining through Haven’t known you that long So I try to deny it But the feeling was much Too much too strong Could this be love Deep down inside Tearing me apart I feel it in my heart CHORUS: Constantly, you’re on my mind Thinking about you all the time I can’t sleep no matter what I do I just keep on thinking ‘bout you Why do I feel this way When I know you have someone That you’re seeing in each and everyday Should I play this game Of just being your friend When I know that’s not where I want it to end How could this be wrong When the feeling so strong Tearing me apart I feel it in my heart ::Repeat Chorus 2x No I don’t want to start No trouble Between you and I and your lover But I must tell you what I’m going through Everytime you walk by I see love in your eyes ::Repeat Chorus 2X

baliw!!!

hay naku bat ba may mga taong sobrang weirdo???

nakakaasar kasi hindi mo maintindihan takbo ng utak nila....

baliw talaga sya....

minsan sobrang bait at sweet...

minsan di ko malaman kung may pms (joke!)

ano ba talaga kuya???

papahulog na kita sa bangin ng matauhan ka eh...

hay naku...nakakainis ka talaga!

TORN!

I can't help it... just enjoy (how i wish) reading it!

Sometime in our lives, we get to the point where we are required to choose and to make decisions. The time when we don’t have any other choice but to choose between the choices placed down before us. During these times, we have to look inside ourselves and make a decision based on what we think might work best. Doing decision is not an easy thing to do, it requires a lot of thinking and balancing the choices given to you. But sometimes, we have to sacrifice something when we’re torn between the choices. It’s not just you sacrifice it for a day or two but sometimes we have to really give it up.

Sometimes we have to choose between our family and our own happiness. I really think that this is such a great decision that one has to face. Most people sacrifice their own happiness for their family. I think that was just right but then you cannot just give up your own happiness because you will soon regret regretting your own self. I think this is just a matter of choosing which or who to prioritize first and how much attention you should give to each thing or person. But who am I to know how it really feels to be in this situation. I don’t know, maybe I’m telling all these things…

Sometimes we have to choose between our career and friends. What I mean here is that sometimes we have to sacrifice the time we have for our friends in order for us to reach our dreams. Based on my experience, it’s hard at first especially when you have to go away from your friends just to follow your dreams and aspirations in life. Eventually I realized that your friends will be there whenever you need them and distance would not be a hindrance for you to still bond with each other. What I am really thankful for is that God had given me friends who really supported me in finding myself, in letting me follow where dreams, in helping me overcome the obstacles that life brings, for making me happy and contented when I’m with them and most especially for making me feel that I’m important and loved. I know that without them, I may have just given up to the challenges that I face. I’m really proud of my barkadas namely PEK and FRAT for they are superb friends!

Sometimes we have to choose between our friends and the one we love. I’m glad I’ve never been in this situation. If ever I would be in this situation I would definitely choose my friends. If I chose my friends, I do hope he would fight for our love because though I would choose my friends I will still let them understand how important he is to me and I hope he would do the same too. I would really be glad if he would prove to them that he really loves me and he has to convince my friends that he would treat me right and that my friends can trust him to take care of me. But I really don’t think that my friends would let me choose between them and the person I love and I do hope that that guy would not let me choose either because when he do that… Sorry but I have to say goodbye to you because if you really love me, you should accept me as a whole and my friends as well for they are a part of me. (Hahaha…I really don’t think this would happen but who knows?)

There a lot of decision making process that we have to go through but as of now I think choosing between friendship and love is one of the hardest decision to make. After choosing between the two, you would have to think of answers to those “what ifs” that you have in mind. It’s really hard to fall for your friend especially when you’re really close to each other. You would have to face those hear-breaking moments where he tells you how happy he is with his girlfriend and how much he loves her or worst when he tells you how badly he was hurt because of their break-up. This is really one of those times when you really have to be strong for him and for yourself as well especially when you don’t want him to know that its tearing your heart. Some of my friends tell me that I shouldn’t fall for a friend and they should be off-limits. I always tell them that you could tell your heart to whom it should fall for and to whom it should not. You may tell yourself “I will not fall for him because he is my friend…” I tell you, this is easier said than done because sometimes you fall for someone you vowed never to fall for and when that happens, it’s not easy to stop the feeling. Another dilemma is whether to tell it to him or not. In this case, I think no one can tell you which to choose but your own self. It’s up for you if you are willing to risk the friendship or you are willing to bear the pain because he doesn’t know that he’s hurting you. But what’s confusing me right now is how to know if your friend already likes you. It’s really hard to tell whether he already likes you or not. What if he treats you so special compared to your other friends, does that mean that he likes you? What if his actions show that he likes you but then he has not said a word to tell you that he really likes you? What if everything shows that it’s not mere friendship but then he really never tells a word about it? What if he does things more than what a friend should do? What if he’s just too sweet to resist? I want answers!!! But I know it’s only through him that I can get the right answers but I would never ever ask him!!! Other questions that’s worrying me… What if he just treats you so well because you’re important for him as a friend? …What if you fall for him but then he just sees you as a friend?… What if... you fall for him? … And what if you tell him? … Would he just ignore it? Tell that he loves you too? Or worst, stop seeing you and let go of your friendship?…WHAT IF??? I needed someone to tell me answers to these questions…I’M TORN AND TORMENTED!