A Sweet Day

For the longest time, I haven't been in a real date. Yesterday, I went out with someone special. We had been planning to go out together for a week or two but it was only yesterday that we finally went out. I was s nervous (yeah, like falling in love for the first time :D) because I don't know what to expect. Another thing that made me nervous was someone who saw us before we left our place - the girl who likes him. He was confused at first why I'm trying to avoid her but she saw us so no more reason to hide, I explained everything to him.

We went to a mall and I was glad that the first place we visited was the church in that mall. It was my first time to enter that church, and it was his first also. It feels so good praying there, beside him. I cannot explain why but it feels like we were praying for the same thing - that is, for God to guide our feelings. Why did I say it? Because the night before our date, we were talking about how we feel for each other and we really don't know exactly what it is but we told each other to just pray for it. I prayed that if this feeling is not right, then may God take it away from me now. However, I felt a different kind of happiness yesterday while I was with him. Happiness that is not caused just by feelings. I don't know how to explain it but it was a different kind of happiness - a serene and sweet happiness maybe.

I've known him for a few months and we've been close just after he celebrated his 21st birthday (oh yeah, I'm older). We've been texting for the past few weeks and I don't know where and when it started but our friendship seemed to take one step further. Is he courting me? I don't know. But he did tell me that he likes me and I've got what he is looking for in a girl. He's such a sweet guy and a perfect gentleman. It was funny because I'm not useed to being with gentleman. I've got a lot of guy friends but they're really not gentlemen because they treat me as a guy :D.

Anyway, after visitng and praying at the Chapel of the Eucharistic Lord, we went to timezone for videoke :D. He was telling me about our common friends who had a relationship and used to go to the same place to sing. Then, I thought he wanted to eat at DQ after singing because that's the main reason why we went out together - to eat ice cream. But when we get to DQ he told me that we should eat lunch first so we had lunch at SisigHooray! This was one of my favorite part of the said date because we had the chance to talk seriously. We talked about each other. He told me about his family and his friends and I don't know why I felt so close to him that time. He doesn't usually speak much but that time he was the one talking the most, and asking me questions. He was sharing a part of himself to me and I find that sweet. So finally we went to Dairy Queen to eat blizzard. Since DQ was full of people eating ice cream on a rainy day, we decided to walk again around the mall. We went to Worlds of fun but since we're still eating, we didn't entetr the store, instead we sat at the bench outide. This part was cute. A man was sitting in between us and we're sitting at both ends of the bench but we were texting each other. I can't help but smile coz even if we are not sitting beside each other, we still found a way to talk. Then after finishing the ice cream, we finally went inside the store and played game. He used most of the tokens in the game where you can get a stuffed toy but unfortunately, he wasn't able to get one. He told me that he wanted to give it to me if ever he would be able to get one.

So that was most of the story. That night, when I got home from work, he told me he was happy to be with me and to have time to talk to me personally. He told me he's not sure of what he's feeling but he's really happy to be with me. He told me that he missed me during the 24 hour period that we didn't text each other (sweet^_^).

As of now, we don't know and I don't know where this feelings will lead us but as I said, we were both praying for it. I feels good to be guided by God's will. And by the way, I met him at our church :)

back to my senses again

i'm back to my own self again :) yeah seriously i've been out of my mind in the past two weeks.. i even thought of leaving PYC for a while because i really don't know what to do..

i wasn't thinking straight during those times..i just felt "emo".. with my broken heart and my tears, i talked to my friends and told them my idea of leaving and much to my surprise... they got mad of me, and almost told me that i'm insane :))

that woke me up from my insanity, realizing that i shouldn't leave my position and of course my friends just because of one person.. he's just one and a lot of people will be affected if i leave.. i realized now that a lot of people love me and i'm just focusing on one person that's why i didn't notice it... they had always been there for me during my "emo" moments and i was just too preoccupied with the thought of happiness..the wrong thought of happiness that relies on one person alone...

one of my friends told me "kaya mo magmove on kung gugusthin mo".. and yes he was right. it's just a matter convincing myself that he's not the world :))

i am decided now... i'll focus on serving God and forget all the heartache :D i want to continue serving for my fellow youth and because this makes me happy.. i had been serving for the past 7 years of my life and more to come.. i'm moving on.. this time, believe me, i'm really moving on for the better.. ^_^

my wonderful 2010

year 2010 had been a great year for me, there had been a lot of trials yet i was able to surpass them all because of the people around me.. because of that, i think it's just right to thank those people now :)

una syempre sa family ko who were always there to support and love me. :)

to SG:
girls... sobrang miss ko na kayong lahat..salamat sa bonding moments at sa tulong sa thesis.. namimiss ko ung pagkain natin ng lunch together..salamat sa mga panahon na kasama ko kayo lalo na nung depressed ako ng bongga.

to my PYC family:
grabe and dami-dami nating pinagdaanan nitong taon.. as in sobrang dami.. haha nakita nyo na ako mabadtrip ng bonggang bongga because of irresponsibility.. i hope maging maayos na lahat sa PYC.. ayoko mawala as officer ng hindi ko naaayos ang mga bagay bagay.. saka pag nawala ako alam ko naman alam nyo na dapat gawin eh.. tandaan natin ang mga natutunan natin this year ok? :)
ryan-sobrang salamat sa laging pagpapasaya sakin pag alam mong down ako :) salamat din sa gift
geril-anak.. haha marami pa tayo pagsasamahan..salamat sa pagsunod sa demands namin kkahit minsan sobrang rush :)
jem-salamat sa mga bonding sa inyo at salamat sa efforts mo lalo na pagdating samin haha :P (gets?)


to my JLC family:
dami natin bonding moments this year and i must say na ito ung year na naging super close tayo sa isa't isa.. sayang di na tayo nakapag Christmas party.. at syempre naglevel up tayo this year :) sana mas madami pa bonding moments this year :P di ko makakalimutan ung bonding nung birthday ni Mikabelles! :) at syempre ung mga bonding sa tiende :)
Mika-siss super salamat sa mga stories :)
Mel-salamat sa pakikinig at pagdamay sakin that night :) (alam mo na yun)
ate angel-salamat sa panlilibre samin palage at sa pagpapasaya samin :)

to my PDYM family:
dami kong natutunan sa inyo..lalo na on leadership.. you're the best guys..super sarap kasama... at syempre di mawawala ang 3 o'clock habit natin :P salamat sa tiwala nyo sa leadership skills ko.. kung wala kayo malamang lost pa rin ako sa PYC :)
ate anne-salamat sa inspirasyon :) salamat sa condo unit at magic sing hehe..
jc at gladys-salamat sa laging pagsuporta pag hindi ko na alam gagawin sa PYC :)

to The Kayleen Effect:
TKE! rock on! it's been a year mula nung makilala ko ang buong banda :) saya ng bonding moments lalo na ung last practice na pinarinig nyo sakin ung mga compo nyo.. you just don't know how proud i am of you guys.. would you venture your heart to love and hurt again? ako na ang LSS sa kanta na yan at ako na adik pakinggan ung silence please... naku kelangan na talaga kumilos ni manager hehe.. i miss you guys.. sana may studio ako para mas madalas ko kayo makasama.. sobrang memorable kasi lahat ng jamming/bonding moments with you :) salamat sa pagiging protectors at sandalan ko kapag nagiging emo.. you guys are very good friends :D

sa huling nakilala at naging kaibigan ko bago matapos ang taon:
jayson-technically di pa pala tayo personally magkakilala pero parang ganun na rin un kasi kilala ko naman barkada :) ikaw na kasi ang busy sa ospital :P


lastly, sa mga impotanteng tao sa 2010:
gelo-kapatid salamat sa pagsama sakin pag wala ako mahatak na kasma.. salamat sa laging pagpapaalala sakin na magsmile ako :)

bhog-mallows salamat sa lahat lalo na sa 9 days simbang gabi at bonding :) ung plan natin sa january ha :) salamat sa pagdamay sakin sa mga panahon na iyakin ako..kelan ba hindi? haha

don-salamat sa lahat ng memories..masaya at hindi lol. i must thank you kasi marami akong natutunan sa loob ng isang taon.. lalong lalo na patience and acceptance.. basta i'm always here as your friend :) hinay hinay lang sa trabaho nakakasira ng pagkakaibigan yan haha joke :P ung next time ha..wag naman next Christmas :P syempre hindi ko makakalimutan ung nangyari nung dec.28 haha bonggang kahihiyan bago natapos ang 2010 at malamang na hindi pa dun ung nagtatapos :))))

jeff-sa pinakamamahal kong best na laging nasa tabi ko para damayan ako sa mga masakit at malungkot na nangyayari sakin.. at sa pagshare ng kasiyahan ko kapag masaya ako.. ang taong kahit di ko madalas makasama eh sigurado akong di ako iiwan.. best, it has been a tough year for me and you were there to give me strenght everytime that i become weak. i also get to know more of your friends through you and i should thank you for that. thank you for reminding me of how special i am. i know you'll be busy with med school in the next years to come but i hope that we could still hang out and have a talk.. syempre mamimiss ko ung mga banat mo lalo na kapag tungkol kay Rockstar :P i love you best :D

thank you everyone :) i love you all :-*