i know i shouldn't think too much but i just can't help it...after that night when he texted me with that kinda weird message, i can't help but think about it...when he indirectly told me about waiting, i got confused but i must admit that i also felt happy that time... happy because he wouldn't ask me to wait if there's really "nothing" between us...he wouldn't say that if he doesn't like me at all..right? and i asked him why but he just told me that he can't answer my questions as of now...that added to my confusion since i don't know what to do...though i know i want to wait for him...
patience...i guess i really need to learn about it...and a very patient person and people know that... i don't easily get mad and not that "strict" when it comes to call time, especially if i'm waiting for someone i really want to be with...but now, it's just too difficult for me to do it...why? because i don't know the reasons why he told me that...what's holding him back...and other questions that i wanted to ask him...am i in a rush? no! i'm not in a rush to have a relationship but i want answers... i hate it when i'm not given any reason because i don't know what to do...
i love him...that the only thing i'm sure of as of now...i want to be with him...grow old with him... i know that God has plans for us and i'm in no position to try to intervene to His plans...i just need to wait, wait, and wait on what would happen next... i hope he wouldn't let me wait for too long... but i know i can wait until he's ready...though it's difficult for me because i really want to tell and let him feel how important he is...i want to show my feelings but i can't for i'm afraid that he might not be ready for it yet...i don't want to ruin what we have now...our friendship... i just hope it wouldn't end there...
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